Ok guys...i've decided to combine my two web pages into one and I like this better than my first one....so i've just copied and pasted some entries that are still true to my insane brain today...enjoy!!
My goal is to gratuate from college and then to move out of the country working on a medical missions team. I committed my soul to missions along time ago and that is the one thing I see myself doing in life, anything else seems like it would be futile. I want to live for my God and I want to work and help people who don't know my God. When i'm done with school I plan to move to the Island of Andros of the Bahamas, or to where ever the Lord leads me, to work on the mission there, that i'm helping build this summer, and to work at the clinic or hospital down there.
I also would like to get married sometime soon. What would really make my life complete is if I found someone who would let me love them. All I want to do is love my husband and serve him, work beside him, and be his partner in crime. I want to love someone!!!
All I want is a simple life. I want to work and earn everything. My heroine is Ruth from the Bible and some day I would like to find my Boaz.
Lyrics that explain my philosophy on life
I try to make myself fit inside your world
My time has been spent on being the right girl
How far away I am from where I need to be
I'm so tired of the useless fantasy
This is not what I need to be
This is not where I need to be
I'm not losing hope, i'm not blaming blame
I kno we both want love, we both feel the same
I'm moving forward to where I need to be
My life is spinning in this mystery
This is not what I need to be
This is not where I need to be
I try to be so perfect
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You come to me with your look of superiority
Have you asked yourself today how real is what you do believe
In one moment he will make me complete
Do I talk about it be apart of the elite.
Do what you say
Do what you do
Do what you say
Do what you do
You try to draw the words out of my mouth
Show me what to do but then i'll die if I live through you
We here to love and not to be maniputlated
To each his own and that should never un-destinive
Do what you say
Do what you do
Do what you say
Do what you do
Yes I have been hurt and left confused but make no mistake that no matter what you do to me I will always come out on top laughing and smiling.
A Prayer for All
God in heaven, often times I find myself praying for myself and not for others. I think that i'm the one who needs the prayer when there are others who are hurting and need a prayer of comfort. Protect the innocent and feed the hungry. Make those around me happy. Lord I pray that if I can't make someone happy that you would bring someone into thier life that will make them happy and who will love them with more love than I can ever express. Forgive those who have sinned against you and have fallen away from you. Guide us through life and help us through the rough times and the share with us the good times.
A Lament By Rachel
I can only imagine what it will be like when I walk by your side....
I can only imagine what my eyes will see when your face is before me
I can only imagine, I can only imagine.....
Surrounded by your glory what will my heart feel , will I dance for you Jesus, or will all of you be still,
will I stand in your presence, to my knees will I fall, will I sing halluejiah, will I be able to speak at all
Oh I can only imagine....I can only imagine
I can only imagine when that day comes, when find my self standing in the sun, I can only imagine when all I would do is forever, forever worship you....
I can only imagine....I can only imagine
Surrounded by your glory what will my heart feel , will I dance for you Jesus, or will all of you be still,
will I stand in your presence, to my knees will I fall, will I sing halluejiah, will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine...
My Immortal By Evenescence
I'm so thried of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
If you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presense still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds wont seem to heal
This pain is just to real
There is just to much that time cannot erase
When you cry I wipe away all of your tears
When you scream I fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You use to captivate me with your resonating light
Now i'm bound by the love you left behind
Your face it hold my once pleasant dream
Your voice chased away all that insanity in me
I tried so hard to tell myself that your gone
But though your still with me
I've been along and alone
Obie Snider (Poppop)
You welcomed me with a loving heart, God's love, and the arms of a grandfather. You were one of my grandfathers and I felt like one of your grandaughters. Now that your gone I feel the loss of someone special and close to me. I'll miss you bright smile, your sparkling blue eyes, your love for life, and you weekly hugs and kisses. You amazed me everytime you picked me when you gave me a hug. I love you poppop and I'll see you soon.
I love the farm....what can I say.
Let Him Heal Written By Rachel Alexandre WWC 2003
He knows that you are broken
He knows that you are hurt
Your soul cries out within you
The pain to much to bear
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Let Him heal your broken heart
Let Him heal your scars and wounds
Let Him pour His spirit on you
Let Him guide you to the end
Sick with notions in you head
You cry out to God above
You need Him to come and heal you
Heal your broken heart again
For all of you who haven't been able to keep up to date........I know I flit around like crazy.......but i'm offically a farm girl.....I live on a big dairy farm and my car has a John Deere license plate on the front.....and well there is paint missing on the front of my car from my last accident.
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